Another day. Somewhat hopeful. I tried to accomplish stuff. I did some meditation and yoga. I wrote a poem and drank wine. Still must fill out the CDR form and send it to SSA. I suspect they will get a doctor to review me. No worries, or trying to not have any since I will simply adapt, go over seas or down south most likely and really work an english teaching job, even if low payed. I miss Ana. I don't see how I can ever have her back. I totally left an irremovable stain on that relationship. She is so lovely and sweet when not hating on me. I was too sensitive and playing the victim for so long. oh well I will do better now, unfortunately without her.
My hair continues to thin now. Fuck it really. I might add some saw palmetto into my diet. and going to the gym with david, my stepdad, tomorrow. First time in a gym in two months. It will be a start of a 4 or 5 month work out plan. Slow and steady, and hopefully i come out stronger, fitter, not fatter, and un-injured. good night.
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